The Pure One
In a town like many
other towns there was a young man named Lao. He was much like other young men
grown up in a middle class home; an only son in a house full of daughters,
rather spoiled, he had neglected his education, having learned already in his
teens to spend the money he was given on foolish pursuits and disposable
material comforts, drinking and partying to excess night after night,
impressing young women with his profligacy and boasts of sexual prowess so they
would sleep with him, all the while paying no attention to the needs or
feelings of others nor even the most rudimentary virtues. But Lao wasn’t
stupid, and by the time he was twenty he was exhausted and rather bored with
this way of living, and at the same time starting to wake up to the idea that
it brought no lasting satisfaction or meaning, and moreover that he was
completely dependent on his parents, whose impatience with him had finally
grown palpable enough to penetrate even his heavy armor of willful indifference.
He began to think instead that it was time to quit wasting his life and find
another path that was independent and purposeful. And so Lao left his family’s comfortable
house, taking only humble clothes, a few necessities in a small satchel, a
little money for emergencies, and went out into the countryside.
He spent months
wandering around, randomly following unpaved roads and forest trails barely
visible in the underbrush, often setting his feet down where there were no discernible
paths at all through untamed wilderness. On the way he learned from other more
experienced wanderers how to survive on what he could find in the forest, or
acquire by begging or, when there was no alternative, stealing. Occasionally he
would stop in villages much smaller than the one he had left to enquire if
there might be any holy person there, or in the hills nearby, who could guide
him to some form of enlightenment. Finally, at one of these villages, he was
told of a monk by the name of Chu who was respected for leading a most austere contemplative
life, an example of utmost holiness, living by himself in a cave on the side of
a remote mountain, ignoring all human contact, all the vices and temptations of
civilization. It was said that Chu had desired
only to extinguish desire itself from his mind, and then to extinguish his
mind—and that he had succeeded. On hearing this, Lao set off immediately to
find this monk.
With some help
from wellwishers who had vague ideas where Chu
might be found, Lao located his cave and camped there. Not wishing to prejudice
the monk against him by too forward an action, he waited patiently near the
entrance for the holy man to emerge. One morning, after quite a few had passed,
he saw an old man of around 60 years, clothed in simple, ragged garments,
hairless except for a gray beard hanging almost to his knees, carrying a small
sack slung over his shoulder, bracing himself upright with a stout oak branch
carved into a walking stick. He was not leaving the cave, but returning to it,
perhaps from a long excursion, or from tending a garden somewhere, or gathering
food in the forest. Lao approached him with a demeanor of genuine humility.
“Are you the monk Chu , whom they call ‘The Pure One’?” he asked, bowing
slightly, directing his gaze downward.
“Oh, piss off!” the old
man exclaimed, his voice laden with disgust; but Lao was determined to ignore
all obstacles on his path.
“I’ve heard you are the
most enlightened of men, the very embodiment of pure spirit in this world, and
I am sincerely hoping you could take me on as your student, to teach me how to
attain what you have attained.”
“Bah! I’ve never heard
anything so stupid! You must be an idiot. How can this foul piece of meat that
is a physical person walking around in the world be the embodiment of pure spirit?
That’s just nonsense.” But this was exactly the sort of thing Lao wanted to
hear, and it made him even more ardent to have Chu
as his teacher.
“I’ll do anything to be
your student and follower,” he pleaded. “I’ll make myself your humble servant,
bring your water, gather and cook your food, sweep your cave every day, chop
wood for your fire, tend your garden, wash your feet—everything that you need
to have done, I will do for you….”
“You idiot, if you do
everything for me, what will I do?”
“You will have lots of time
to become more holy and gain more enlightenment even more quickly. And then I
will learn more quickly from you!”
At this Chu
burst out laughing. “You have answers for everything, but they make no sense.
If you have all the answers, how can anyone enlighten you? If I took you as my
student, it would be a joke.”
“Yes, sir,” agreed Lao, “a
big joke!” At this, the monk roared even more loudly, but to Lao it sounded
like a genuinely hearty laugh, the edge of hostility diminished. Maybe Chu was beginning to think the young man was part of his
fate, a path chosen not by him but for him, which he must humbly accept; or
perhaps he just liked jokes. It seemed that Chu
had a sense of humor, and didn’t consider a joke inimical to his view of the
world or his way out of it. After a while he stopped laughing and spoke to Lao
sternly.
“All right, you can stay
and be my servant, but let’s get a few things straight. First, you will not
speak to me again; I don’t want to hear any more of your nonsense. Second, if
you dare to touch my feet, I will beat you senseless. And thirdly, I will not
teach you a damn thing until I’m good and ready.”
“It’s a deal,” said Lao.
“Shut up,” said Chu .
So Lao became the monk’s
servant and did everything for him, with neither of them speaking a word. There
isn’t much sense to sweeping a cave often, but Lao did it every day. Chu showed him where his garden was, and Lao tended it; he
chopped wood and made the fire; he brought water and brewed tea from wild herbs;
he gathered food, cooked it simply, and ate with the old man in silence. Chu had a place carved out in the cave, something like an
alcove, where he slept and kept his privacy; Lao carved another such alcove for
himself and slept there. The old man spent his time in meditation, or the quiet
contemplation of his garden, or taking long walks in the forest. Occasionally,
for no apparent reason, he hit Lao on the back or upside the head with his
heavily knotted walking stick. This really hurt, and brought Lao no exceptional
realization that he could fathom; sometimes such a blow would make him consider
leaving, but his determination won out and he stayed. In this way the days
passed inexorably into weeks, and then into years, and the years accumulated
into decades, which also passed inexorably. Eventually Lao became an old man,
as old as Chu had been when Lao accosted him at the entrance to his cave; and
as for Chu , well, he got a lot older. Yet
still he told Lao nothing. But then, after nearly forty years of this
treatment, the now deeply bent and decrepit monk came to his bald and long
bearded servant as he swept the floor of the cave, and spoke to him at last
once more.
“Tomorrow morning, at
dawn, come to my alcove, and I will teach you what you wanted to know of
enlightenment.” Elated beyond measure, Lao went to his corner of the cave and
wept. In the morning, after a sound sleep, he woke up and went to see his
master, expecting to be told everything he yearned to know. But when he saw Chu lying perfectly still in his alcove, he realized that
the old man wasn’t just sleeping any more. He had died in the night. And Lao
saw that the lips of Chu ’s corpse were bent
slightly to form the wry smile of a man who had reached the end of a long and
droll story.
“You old fucker,” Lao
said. He wasn’t really angry, but wondered what he should do. His own life was by
now not far from being altogether spent on yet another foolish pursuit. He
could appreciate the humor in that. When Chu
had said their arrangement would be a joke, he had told the truth, and Lao had unthinkingly
agreed to it. Soon he felt a bit weary standing there, and couldn’t think of
much else except to remain where he was. Later that day he buried Chu beneath
an ancient pine tree in the forest, and then continued living the only life he
knew, sweeping the cave, gathering food in the wild, chopping wood and making a
fire in the winter to ward off the cold. He took long walks and meditated
alone. He found he had grown to prefer things this way, and saw no reason to
leave or change his habits. But one day, after no more than a few months had
passed, a young man came up to him as he was returning to the cave from tending
his garden.
“Are you the monk Lao,
known hereabout as ‘The Pure One’?” the young man asked humbly. “I’m seeking a
path to enlightenment, and I’ve heard you know the way.”
“Get out of here!” Lao exclaimed,
his voice heavily laden with disgust.
© 2013 Steven Levery
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